Thursday, September 23, 2010


Oh, dear. My, my, have I been wound tight these past couple weeks. Full moon? Upcoming period? Wedding stress? Book stress? Family drama? Yes, yes, yes.

I had a knot in my neck that hurt for two weeks. I thought it was from falling asleep on the couch. I forced myself to swim and hike. Pain and pain. I sat in front of a jet in the jacuzzi, I stretched! Little did I know, it was merely my damaged 5th chakra.

I say this half sarcastically, half wholeheartedly. In Sedona, Mark and I got aura readings. My chakras of course were seriously misaligned and mangled, while Mark's aura and chakras were heavenly and perfect and the psychic ladies fawned all over him. WHATEVER.

I half believe that this is all new agey bullshit, and I half believe it is 100000% true. Wanna know why?
Because I said not a word in yoga today, but the whole class was ABOUT ME. She talked about the full moon (Yes! I go nuts when there is a full moon!) the change of seasons (Yes! I love fall but it makes me sad! Why?) grinding teeth and the necessity of 5th chakra stuff (Me! I grind my teeth!). Then we did like 20 minutes of positions that heal the 5th chakra. This is in your throat, neck, upper back, where I am all tensed, where all my tension has been. I felt such a release in one position that I started crying.
THEN she explained that this is the part of the body that holds stress that comes from things you can't change. Excess stress- unnecessary stress. Stress that comes from DECISION MAKING (!!! I have never had to make so many decisions in such a short time period!) and the stress from worrying about things you really can't change or fix (EVERYTHING FAMILY RELATED!)
She told us at some point to say the serenity prayer to ourselves- grant me the strength to change the things I can, accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to know the difference.
At the end, lying there in the dark, I said this to myself so many times. Over and Over. I ended up saying "serenity" instead of "strength" then "accept" then "wisdom" until it just degenerated into "serenity" over and over in my mind.
I left feeling a lightness and happiness that I have not felt in weeks. I left thinking that $7 is a great price to pay for a  90 minute workout/therapy that actually works.
I must do yoga more often!
This picture is from a wonderful day with Mark in the Antelope Valley. I CAN feel peace. I HAVE felt peace, it is possible.

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